Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i am not what you always think i am -
bo chup.
i behave that way so as to avoid additional problems in my life. i am already facing a problematic life ( i think ) and the laughter is partially a smokescreen. being bo chup indirectly draws me away from some of those issues that have nothing to do with me or increase the pimples on my face.
perhaps people think i could play a part in them, lend a listening ear or give a helping hand, but please don't force me when i don't feel like. u want me to give a damn about what you're doing, tell me and i'll give. but please don't be so temperamental and tell me only when u feel like. i'm not some spare tyre for you to come and go as and when you like.
you can say that all negative remarks in front of me, but please don't do it behind me. if you don't like the way i do things, tell me. i'll change to your preference.
and please don't come in and go out of my life whenever u like it. i'm not one of those on your shelves that you could take and put back after getting sick of it.